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Monday, March 25, 2024

A Catholic in a Pagan Land: My Experiences at Oak Spirit Sanctuary

Likewise, other religions found everywhere try to counter the restlessness of the human heart, each in its own manner, by proposing "ways," comprising teachings, rules of life, and sacred rites. The Catholic Church rejects nothing that is true and holy in these religions. She regards with sincere reverence those ways of conduct and of life, those precepts and teachings which, though differing in many aspects from the ones she holds and sets forth, nonetheless often reflect a ray of that Truth which enlightens all men. . . .  The Church, therefore, exhorts her sons, that through dialogue and collaboration with the followers of other religions, carried out with prudence and love and in witness to the Christian faith and life, they recognize, preserve and promote the good things, spiritual and moral, as well as the socio-cultural values found among these men.

~ Nostra Aetate, Second Vatican Council

So I've been hanging out with pagans lately.

There is a pagan community and nature preserve about thirty minutes away from where I live called Oak Spirit Sanctuary.  I came across it about three-and-a-half months ago as I was looking to enhance my celebration of the Advent-Christmas season.  I'm a medievophile, and I've always been attracted to the ethos of the (European, especially English) Middle Ages.  I'm the kind of person who likes to hang out at Renaissance festivals.  I love Arthuriana, Robin Hood, Vikings, and all the rest.  I'm attracted to the seasonal and cultural celebrations that accompanied the celebrations of the Church Year in medieval and Renaissance times.  So, this past Christmas, I was looking for some kind of classic "Yule"-type celebration to enhance my other Christmas traditions.  Oak Spirit Sanctuary (OSS) was having such a celebration, so I decided to attend.

Anyone who knows me knows that this sort of boundary-crossing is nothing new to me.  I've always been inclined to wander out of my own circles to explore those of others.  I love crossing boundaries and bringing separate worlds together.  In my high school days I used to attend synagogue regularly, hang out at mosques, and go Christmas caroling with Latter-day Saints, among other things.  During my synagogue-attending days I began to learn some Hebrew.  When the members of Temple Beth-El (a small, Reform Jewish congregation in Sedalia, MO) found out about that, they invited me to join the rotation in leading Shabbat services on Friday nights.  The congregation was too small to keep their own rabbi during most of the year, so the members would rotate leading the services.

When I attended the Yule event at OSS, I very quickly fell in love with the place and with the community, and so I decided to continue to visit.  OSS follows a yearly cycle of celebrations common in some forms of Neo-Paganism, a cycle which tracks to a significant degree the seasonal celebrations in various parts of medieval Europe and which were, in various ways, often celebrated by Christians as well.  In fact, it is often very difficult historically to separate pagan and Christian strands out of these traditions because the two cultures became so intertwined.  In addition to Yule, I have now attended Imbolc and Ostara as well (I'll talk about these a bit more below).

As a Catholic Christian who believes in the value of crossing boundaries in this kind of way, I wanted to take some time to briefly describe my own experience and how this works for me and to provide some general reflections.  It is a bit tricky to write an article like this, since I recognize that I may have readers from both Christian and pagan backgrounds.  The different mindsets of these traditions (with their different beliefs, concerns, ways of using language, etc.) make it difficult to speak in a way that will communicate well to both groups at the same time, but I'll do my best!

A Nuanced Relationship

First of all, I am a mainstream, orthodox Catholic, faithful to the Catholic faith as taught by the Magisterium of the Catholic Church.  I have a friend who describes himself as a Catholic of a heretical variety.  He takes elements of Catholicism and blends them with elements of other religions in his own way without a commitment to be consistent with official Catholic teaching.  His experience is a fascinating one, to be sure, but it is not the same as mine in this respect.  My commitment to orthodox Catholicism provides both incentives as well as challenges to my attempt to make a religious connection outside the boundaries of the Catholic Church and Christianity.

There are incentives.  As my quotation at the beginning of this article illustrates, the Catholic Church recognizes that there is truth and beauty in other religious traditions, and she encourages her children not only to recognize that but to respect, and even to preserve and to promote, such goodness and beauty.  At the same time, there are challenges.  There are elements of pagan practice that are inconsistent with orthodox Catholic belief and practice.

What this means for me is that my participation with the community at OSS has to be carefully nuanced.  I want to join in with whatever I can, but there are elements from which I have to remain aloof.  For example, as a Catholic, I will not participate in the invoking of spirits, magical practices, or the worship of pagan or nature deities.

For Catholics, one of the concerns about invoking spirits is that there is a danger of becoming involved with evil spirits.  When I participate in events at OSS, I carry a rosary and cross and a pendant dedicated to Mary as well as praying for God's special protection and the protection of his angels.

But, while I must remain aloof from some things, I choose to see my relationship with OSS in an overall positive way, and I find much that I not only can participate in but that I find to be greatly enriching to my spiritual and personal life.

Some Beautiful and Valuable Virtues of Paganism

The spirit of modern paganism, at least of the sort encountered at OSS, I would characterize as one of joy and celebration.  It is a delightful spirit that fills my heart with great encouragement and joy!  When I listen to pagan folk music and participate with the community at OSS, I often find myself filled with the exuberance and joy of life.  There is a great spirit of festivity, but a festivity full of religious mystery as well.  It is difficult to convey this atmosphere in writing to someone who has not experienced it.  Ironically (or perhaps not?), as I search about for some way of conveying the atmosphere I am speaking of, what comes to mind is the many instances of fauns, dryads, nymphs, and others dancing and celebrating in Christian author C.S. Lewis's famous Chronicles of Narnia.  In The Horse and His Boy, the faun Tumnus describes the Summer Festival in Narnia, where "there'll be bonfires and all-night dances of Fauns and Dryads in the heart of the woods."1  Here is a snippet of a description of the Narnian "Great Snowball Dance" from The Silver Chair:

The noises she had been hearing turned out to be of two kinds: the rhythmical thump of several feet, and the music of four fiddles, three flutes, and a drum. She also got her own position clear. She was looking out of a hole in a steep bank which sloped down and reached the level about fourteen feet below her. Everything was very white. A lot of people were moving about. Then she gasped! The people were trim little Fauns, and Dryads with leaf-crowned hair floating behind them. For a second they looked as if they were moving anyhow; then she saw that they were really doing a dance—a dance with so many complicated steps and figures that it took you some time to understand it. Then it came over her like a thunderclap that the pale, blue light was really moonlight, and the white stuff on the ground was really snow. And of course! There were the stars staring in a black frosty sky overhead. And the tall black things behind the dancers were trees. They had not only got out into the upper world at last, but had come out in the heart of Narnia. Jill felt she could have fainted with delight; and the music—the wild music, intensely sweet and yet just the least bit eerie too, and full of good magic as the Witch's thrumming had been full of bad magic—made her feel it all the more.

    All this takes a long time to tell, but of course it took a very short time to see. . . .  Circling round and round the dancers was a ring of Dwarfs, all dressed in their finest clothes; mostly scarlet with fur-lined hoods and golden tassels and big furry top-boots. As they circled round they were all diligently throwing snowballs. (Those were the white things that Jill had seen flying through the air.) They weren't throwing them at the dancers as silly boys might have been doing in England. They were throwing them through the dance in such perfect time with the music and with such perfect aim that if all the dancers were in exactly the right places at exactly the right moments, no-one would be hit. This is called the Great Snow Dance and it is done every year in Narnia on the first moonlit night when there is snow on the ground. Of course it is a kind of game as well as a dance, because every now and then some dancer will be the least little bit wrong and get a snowball in the face, and then everyone laughs. But a good team of dancers, Dwarfs, and musicians will keep it up for hours without a single hit. On fine nights when the cold and the drum-taps, and the hooting of the owls, and the moonlight, have got into their wild, woodland blood and made it even wilder, they will dance till daybreak. I wish you could see it for yourselves.2

In these descriptions, I feel like Lewis has captured the atmosphere I have often felt at pagan events.  There is a spirit there that fills the heart with a sense of exuberance, deep joy, freedom, and mysterious transcendence all at once, and which leaves one feeling one has encountered the Love and Joy that is at the root of all things.  This is something that we Christians can resonate with and totally get behind.  Christianity tells us that at the heart of all things there is a kind of Great Dance of love and joy - the Life of God.  The foundation of all existence is the Supreme Being who is a Trinity of Persons, whose Being is the fullness of Goodness, Truth, and Beauty.  The members of this Trinity - Father, Son. and Holy Spirit - eternally share this Divine Life and Beauty with each other in a relationship of supreme Love.  The creation of the world is the overflow and outpouring of that Life and Love filling up the nothingness with their beauty and joy.  And redemption in Christ is all about bringing all of us, who have been alienated from that Divine Life, back into full communion with it.  When I am at a pagan event, God uses the spirit of that celebration to help put me in connection with this Divine Life.

The pagan atmosphere I have experienced is also one of love, compassion, empathy, caring, community, and the celebration of differences and individuality.  One of the mottos of OSS is "Welcome Home!"  And they truly mean it and practice it.  Pagan spirituality and culture emphasizes the uniqueness of individuals and encourages the celebration of that uniqueness.  People of all sorts are welcomed and loved and appreciated.  From my first moments visiting at Yule, I felt at home.  I felt I was able to be myself and that I would be valued and appreciated for who I am.  We are one common humanity, and this is something one feels at OSS.  It has been deeply meaningful for me personally.  And, again, it is something Christians can get behind.  We are all made in God's image and reflect, to some degree, his glory.  We have value as our unique selves.  Christian imagery describes the Church - the people of God - as a Body, which has a unity but consists of many distinct parts which are all important in their own way.  "But God has so adjusted the body, giving the greater honor to the inferior part, that there may be no discord in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another.  If one member suffers, all suffer together; if one member is honored, all rejoice together" (1 Corinthians 12:24-26, RSVCE).3

Paganism encourages a deep connection to nature which I also appreciate.  The world is God's creation, and it is full of life from God.  It is something to be celebrated and protected and nurtured.  God connects to us through it.  During my time at OSS so far, I have already been encouraged to think more deeply about my own connection to nature.  At the Ostara event this past weekend, there was a lecture about native Missouri flowers and an encouragement to plant them and spread them.  I've had very little connection in my own life to gardening and planting, but I've been concerned for some time about the harm that our industrial society has done and continues to do to nature (not to mention the harm it does to our fellow human beings) and I have wanted to learn better how to live in a more nature-nurtuing way.  Paganism's interest in and love of nature provides a much-needed emphasis here and I look forward to learning more from various members of the community.

Appreciating the Sacred in a Pagan Context

Christians have often recognized that God communicates truth and grace through the myths and practices of other religions insofar as they are rays reflecting the truth and beauty of God.  I have encountered that at OSS in a number of ways.

I have already mentioned pagan celebrations and rituals.  Pagan rituals involve elements that, as a Catholic, I cannot participate in, such as directly invoking spirits, worshiping various deities, and practicing magic.  During these celebrations, I must bow out at certain times.  But even when I must bow out, I can recognize elements of truth, goodness, and beauty that are there.  At the Ostara festival this past weekend, the focus was on saying farewell to winter and welcoming spring.  This was made concrete by the burning of an effigy of the goddess Marzanna after holding a wake for her dead form (symbolizing the dying and passing of winter).  Another element of the ritual observances was an enactment based on the myth of Persephone, who lives with her husband Hades in the underworld during the winter but comes back to bring new life to the earth in the springtime, returning to her mother Demeter.  As a myth, I can recognize much truth and value in it, as I, too, live in the world and experience the changing of the seasons.  Enacting out these seasonal truths in a kind of concrete ritual celebration is not something that need be foreign to Christian sensibility, though Christians would not invoke or worship Persephone, Demeter, etc., as actual deities.  And these myths have a deeper significance also, as they point to the fact that, spiritually speaking as well, life leads to death, and new life cannot come about except through death.  To reach the Divine Life, we must die to self and to sin.  We must suffer and be crucified with Christ in order to rise with him.  God himself has died in order to bring us new life, and we must walk this path he has opened for us.  (Romans 6; Galatians 2:20; etc.)  The changing of the seasons is a temporal reality which points us to this deeper spiritual truth.  During these celebrations, while abstaining from elements incompatible with my Catholic faith, I was able to participate in and be enriched by elements that were not only compatible with but which also fed my own Christian experience.

Myths, symbols, fantasy - all of these have been and are used by God to reach us and connect with us.  Christians have often considered these things as "preparations for the gospel," and they can enrich our spiritual experience as Christians.  I have been greatly enriched here by the thinking of modern Christian writers C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkien (the latter a Catholic), both of whom used elements of pagan-inspired myth to convey spiritual realities and believed that this is a valuable practice.  We've already seen this in my earlier quotations from The Chronicles of Narnia.  Pagan references abound in this series.  In Lewis's Space Trilogy, we see the gods and goddesses associated with various planets make an appearance in a positive way.  (See especially the chapter "The Descent of the Gods" in That Hideous Strength.)  And Tolkien introduces us to elves, goblins, and many other pagan-myth-inspired characters and creatures.  The characters in his mythology also include the Ainur, who are powerful beings that are involved in the creation of the world and are often honored and invoked by the elves.  In a fascinating and beautiful essay, "On Fairy-Stories," Tolkien laid out his vision of how all of these things are connected.  I highly recommend it.  In that essay, Tolkien says, "God is the Lord, of angels, and of men--and of elves."4

Nostra Aetate, the Church document from the Second Vatican Council I quoted from at the beginning of this article, after telling us that all religions "reflect a ray of that Truth which enlightens all men," goes on to say that the Church "proclaims, and ever must proclaim Christ 'the way, the truth, and the life' (John 14:6), in whom men may find the fullness of religious life, in whom God has reconciled all things to Himself."5  Catholics have often spoken of Christianity as the fulfillment and the fullness of all religion.  This sounds condescending to a pagan perspective, for obvious reasons, and yet what is meant is simply that Catholics see Christianity and the Christian gospel as true.  We believe it is true that there is one God, that he is a Trinity of Persons, that this one God created the world, that the world has fallen away from God, that God has reconciled and saved the world through Christ, etc.  If these things are really true, then all other truths must find their context in these great overarching truths.  For me, therefore, all spiritual practices and experiences direct me to God through Christ as their ultimate goal and context.  All the truth and goodness and beauty found in the spiritual and the natural world flow from the foundation of the blessed fullness of life and love found in the Trinity and ultimately lead us back to the Trinity.

There are many stone circles and fire rings at OSS.  Yes, there are elements in these things that Christians must remain aloof from.  But the symbolism of these kinds of places - like the myths and images drawn from paganism in The Lord of the Rings and The Chronicles of Narnia - can also be a means of divine grace and experience of the divine.  Because fantasy and pagan and medieval culture have been important parts of my own spiritual formation, I find myself deeply touched by these kinds of places, and I experience the sacred in them (cautiously!).  There is a beautiful ritual circle area at OSS called Redbud Circle.  I spent some time by myself there this past weekend and felt a deep connection to nature and to the sacredness of the place (sacred to me because of the symbolism connected to my background), and through these things to the divine life.  There was a wonderful moment where I was in the midst of this experience and I heard a flock of wild geese in the distance.  Wild geese are meaningful to me as a symbol of God's presence with me - something I derived years ago from Celtic Christianity which often uses the goose as a symbol of the Holy Spirit.  So the combination of wild geese with the sacredness and beauty of Redbud Circle was deeply meaningful to me.  My spiritual experience during this time also brought me in touch with difficult life-experiences I have been going through lately and had an encouraging and cathartic effect on me, helping to continue my healing.

There is another spot on the land called "Aphrodite's Grove" - a shrine area dedicated to the goddess Aphrodite.  The goddess Aphrodite has personal meaning for me because of my own personal history.  At the very beginning of my awakening to spiritual life and practice, back when I was thirteen years old, I got for my birthday a computer game (for my old Amiga computer - this was 1990) called Conquests of Camelot: The Search for the Grail.  In this game, the player plays King Arthur who is searching for the Holy Grail to save his kingdom.  The game designer, Christy Marx, clearly had a lot of Neo-Pagan influence.  A major portion of the plot has to do with the Great Goddess and her manifestations in other goddesses.  The Goddess particularly manifests as Aphrodite, and it is ultimately Aphrodite from whom Arthur must attain the Grail by passing a number of spiritual, mental, and physical tests.  This game played an important role in awakening my spiritual sense and helped form the symbolism and imagery that would be meaningful to me throughout my life, so Aphrodite has always been an important spiritual symbol for me.  Just to be clear - as a Catholic, I do not worship the goddess Aphrodite.  However, she is a symbol of what might be called "the divine feminine."  God connects to us in a variety of ways.  He connects to us directly, but, according to Catholic spirituality, he also connects us to through his saints (and through sacraments, sacramentals, and other tangible means).  There are Catholic saints who are patrons of various things, paralleling in some ways how pagan deities are gods or goddesses of particular things.  The saints are not deities, but they are full of God's grace and so reflect, to some degree, his glory and goodness, and we honor them because of the presence of the divine life manifested in them.  They intercede with us before God.  God blesses us through them.  The ultimate Saint is the Virgin Mary, the Mother of God, who is Full of Grace.  Catholic theology defines "grace" as the "gift of the divine life."  In Mary, we have an image - a feminine image - of a person filled with God's grace and thus with the divine life, reflecting the beauty of that life.  God communicates truth and beauty to us through the feminine person and image of the Virgin Mary.  So, while Mary is not God and not to be worshiped as God, she manifests the divine life and so can be called, in a sense, a manifestation - the manifestation - of the divine feminine.  Myths and images of the Goddess in paganism also manifest to some degree the beauty of the divine life (again, as God uses myths and symbols to communicate himself to us and connect with us, like I talked about earlier).  So there is a connection between pagan images/ideas of the Goddess and the Virgin Mary.  For me, therefore, there is a connection particularly between Aphrodite and the Virgin Mary, because Aphrodite, to me, is a mythic symbol that God has used to connect with me, manifesting the beauty of the divine through a feminine image, and the Virgin Mary also connects with that reality.  I was therefore delighted to find a shrine to Aphrodite on the land.  And I was even more delighted when I found that among the statues and images at the shrine, there is a statue of the Virgin Mary.  I had never encountered this connection before outside my own experience, so this was a very meaningful manifestation of God's providence for me.

The festival of Imbolc, which I attended last month, focused on the Irish goddess Brigid.  The central ritual involved calling on Brigid to bring hope in the coming year.  But Brigid the goddess is bound up with St. Brigid of Kildare, a famous Irish saint (the patroness saint of Ireland).  Imbolc is also called St. Brigid's Day.  This is a good example of the historical overlap and interwoven quality of pagan and Christian practices and celebrations.  While I could not invoke Brigid as a goddess, I was able to celebrate St. Brigid (whose associations parallel those of her goddess version to a great degree) and participate in that way with the community (while abstaining from the specifically magical and deity-worshiping elements).

Time for a very brief excursus:  Why do Catholics not consider the saints to be minor deities?  There is no doubt that there is significant overlap between how gods and goddesses function in paganism and how the saints function in Catholicism (especially when various deities are seen as manifestations of some higher Supreme Being).  The parallels are striking and obvious.  (Protestants are often happy to point them out as they accuse Catholicism of being too pagan!)  I think the difference is rooted in the different worldview-constructs of paganism vs. Christianity.  In paganism, polytheism is often at the core of the view of the world.  The universe is a place of chaos where various gods bring a limited order.  The gods have a kind of independence.  They are even often at odds with each other in the myths of various cultures.  Monotheism, on the other hand, roots the universe in the unified order of one Supreme Being (although Christianity makes that supreme reality one of relationship and love because of the Trinity).  There are no competing principalities.  Even Satan and his demons are fallen angels, deriving everything from God and only doing their works under God's permissive will.  In this view, only one Being has a right to be treated as Supreme.  There are no other autonomous or independent powers or authorities.  The Abrahamic traditions manifest this conviction by refusing to allow other entities besides God to be treated as deities, maintaining a strict ontological divide between Creator and creatures.  And yet, in these traditions, other entities exist and have limited supernatural powers (derived ultimately from God).  Angels are created by God.  The saints, including Mary, are mere humans who have been raised up to share in the divine life as a gift of unmerited grace (a destiny all of us are called to).  So, in Christian language, we do not "worship" angels or saints as "gods," and Christians must stay away from giving "worship" - supreme value and authority - to any being other than God.  (However, there are some forms of paganism in a broad sense - Hinduism being perhaps the most obvious example - where there is a strong recognition of a Supreme Being and that lesser deities are derived from him.  I think there is room for fruitful dialogue here regarding how we should understand the similarities and the differences between this kind of view and the view of the Abrahamic religions.)

My love of and history with Arthuriana also gives me a connection to paganism, as the legend of King Arthur is something both traditions have an interest in and the Arthur story has been told in both Christian and in pagan ways (and often involving a mix of the two).  In the early days of OSS, the community was called Ozark Avalon, a reference to Arthurian legend.

Catholic and pagan cultures also share the celebration of May and Maying traditions.  I've always been attracted to Maying traditions because of their connection with medieval culture and with Arthurian and Robin Hood stories.  Maying festivies have included things like maypole dancing and the crowning of a May Queen and sometimes a May King.  OSS, along with many pagan groups, celebrates Beltane, a pagan version of this Maying tradition which involves such historic customs.  While pagans at OSS will be crowning May royalty, Catholics in the community will be celebrating the Virgin Mary who is associated with the month of May.  In fact, one of the common traditions among Catholics during May is to give Mary a May Crowning where statues of the Virgin are crowned with wreaths of flowers, celebrating Mary as Queen of Heaven and Earth.  Mary is the ultimate May Queen!

A Beautiful and Loving Community

The time I've spent at Oak Spirit Sanctuary so far has been deeply enriching and meaningful to me.  I have been enriched by the connection to nature, the sacredness of the land, the spiritual practices, and, certainly not least, the wonderfully joyful and caring community.  OSS has given me an acceptance and welcome that has meant a lot to me.  Even in the short time I've been visiting, I have come to love this community.  One of my friends at OSS told me that people tend to find out about the community when they need it.  This has certainly been true for me, and I am forever grateful to the people of the community for their love and acceptance of me even over just these past three months.  I look forward to many years to come.  I mentioned above that one of the mottos of OSS is "Welcome home!"  It's on the sign on the front gate and people say it to each other frequently.  This, again, is personally meaningful to me because I have often remembered over the years since becoming Catholic how one of my RCIA sponsors who helped guide me into the Catholic Church back in 2016 wrote a congratulatory card to myself and my family upon our entering the Church, and in that card she wrote, "Congratulations and welcome home!"  Catholics often say that to those who have joined the Church, and I've always treasured that welcome.  I don't believe that anything happens by chance, and I am grateful to God for the parallel.

The Value of Crossing Borders

All of us are members of the same human family, but we all-too-often miss out on the full experience of that fact because, for most of us, it is our tendency to stay within our own borders.  We also often miss all the truth and beauty that we have to share with each other.  As a Christian, my spiritual life is greatly enriched because of my ability to draw from the rich spiritual experiences in pagan life and practice.  I am grateful to God that he has given me a personality that has a natural tendency to want to cross borders and bring people together, and I see it as a calling in my life to help build these kinds of connections.  The Church has encouraged us Catholics to get out and get to know our other human brothers and sisters, to dialogue, to collaborate, and to help build together a respectful and loving community.  This was a major theme of one of Pope Francis's recent encyclicals, Fratelli Tutti (which means "all brothers"), which closes with a couple of beautiful prayers asking God to help us remember our common humanity and to work together in love to better the world.

During the closing ritual at Ostara this past weekend, one of the celebrants reminded us that life is followed by death, but that through death comes new life.  I left that celebration to go to St. Thomas More Newman Center Parish in Columbia to celebrate Palm Sunday and the beginning of Holy Week, where Catholics celebrate how Christ's life led to his death, and how his death led to a resurrection of new life for himself and for all the world.  I can think of no connection more fitting!

St. Brigid, Holy Mary Mother of God, and all the saints, pray for us!

Blessed Be!

1  C.S. Lewis, The Horse and His Boy (New York: Collier Books, 1970), 72.

2  C.S. Lewis, The Silver Chair (New York: Collier Books, 1970), 191-193

The Revised Standard Version of the Bible: Catholic Edition (Washington, DC: The Division of Christian Education of the National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America, 1965, 1966), taken from the Bible Gateway website at https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1+Corinthians+12&version=RSVCE on 3/25/24.

4  J.R.R. Tolkien, "On Fairy-Stories", The Tolkien Reader (New York: Ballantine Books, 1966), 70-73).

5  Nostra Aetate (October 28, 1965) 2, http://www.vatican.va/archive/hist_councils/ii_vatican_council/documents/vatii_decl_19651028_nostra-aetate_en.html.

Published on Monday of Holy Week

ADDENDUM 3/29/24:  Just to be clear, this article is autobiographical in nature, and is not intended as an overall catechesis on the Catholic view of non-Catholic religion.  If one is looking for a more holistic, objective catechesis of this sort, one might start (in addition to the content and the links already provided within the article, including the link to Fratelli Tutti) with Nostra Aetate #1, 2, and 5 (this is the Second Vatican Council document I quoted from in the article), and then one might look at The Catechism of the Catholic Church #836-848, 856.  If one wishes to go a bit further, one might also consult these documents here, here, and here.

While I'm "addending," let me also provide a link to Laudato Si, in which Pope Francis has laid out a case for the care we owe to nature (since I mentioned in the article how love of and care for nature is important in paganism).

ADDENDUM 6/22/24:  Since I wrote this article, I’ve been continuing to reflect on pagan ideas and practices.  My observations and reflections have led me to recognize greater nuances in how various concepts, like “magic,” are understood in the Neo-Pagan community.  See here for some further thoughts on some of these things, looking at them and evaluating them from the perspective of a Catholic worldview.

ADDENDUM 10/23/24:  See here for more on pagan inspiration in C.S. Lewis and J.R.R. Tolkien.

Thursday, June 30, 2022

Documentation of My Attempt to Bridge the Augustinian-Reformed Gap in 2003

A few days ago, I found an old CD which turned out to contain, among other things, a collection of documents I wrote up while I was coming to the conclusion that the gap between the Augustinian and the Reformed doctrines of justification could be bridged.  The writings document my attempt to process this question from the beginning, where I seem skeptical that the gap could be bridged, to the end, where I was just about ready to conclude that it could be.

You can read more about the context of all of this here, where I lay out a narrative of the history of my thinking on the doctrine of justification.  In short, I started with what I called an Augustinian doctrine of justification.  I came to believe, back in 2000, that this view was in conflict with the Reformed view.  I wrote this paper at that time arguing for the Augustinian view and against the Reformed view.  But, in 2003, as documented below, I began to wonder if the gap between these two views might be bridged.  You can see that thought process played out below.  In the end, in the Summer of 2003, I concluded that the gap could be bridged, and for over a decade after that I publicly articulated my doctrine of justification in Reformed language - an example of which you can find here (I say "publicly," because in my own private thoughts I felt freer to think in Augustinian terms sometimes).  (See also here, in ADDENDUM 1/18/22 towards the bottom, some emails from this time period illustrating my thinking as I articulated it to a Catholic correspondent.)  I continued to be optimistic about the gap being bridged between Augustinian and Reformed thought for a few years after becoming Catholic (back in 2015), and I wrote some articles (see here and here) in which I've tried to articulate two different ways (a pro-Augustinian way and an anti-Augustinian way) the Reformed doctrine might be understood, but over the past three years or so I've once again begun to be suspicious of whether the gap can be bridged after all (though I'm not feeling conclusive on this point at this time).

In some of the documents, I appear to be addressing a Reformed person in correspondence.  In one document, I explicitly mention "Pastor Wallace."  He's the pastor of Christ OPC in Salt Lake City, UT, which was our church for fourteen years.  Back at the time these documents were written, I was hoping to persuade him that my Augustinian view was OK.  He may be the person all the documents that are addressed to someone were addressed to, but I did correspond with some other Reformed people about this as well at this time, so I'm not sure.  It's been a long time (about 19 years!), and I didn't even remember that these documents existed until the day before yesterday.

At any rate, enjoy!  (I've left my writing as it was when I wrote it, even leaving in typos.  I did, at a few points, remove an extra space between paragraphs.)

This document is dated 4/14/2003.  I'm pretty much rearticulating my Augustinian position which I argued for in my earlier paper.  As in that paper, I acknowledge the idea that we are justified--made right with God--by the righteousness of Christ, and by that righteousness imputed to us in the sense of "counted as ours," but I also affirm that this has no reality or actualization in our life or experience unless that righteousness is also infused into us, changing us and making us actually righteous, because a state of unrighteousness in our lives inherently brings God's displeasure and punishment, while a state of righteousness in our nature inherently brings God's pleasure and reward.

Obviously I wrote this piece as a brainstorming document to myself, not intended for public view.  Sorry for all the typos!

We are sinners by nature, evil and guilty.  Therefore, we cannot be justified, or be accepted by God as righteous, by our works.  The law cannot justify us because we cannot obey it; rather, it condemns us.  Solution:  Christ took our sin upon himself and died for it, destroying it, and rise from the dead, producing the righteousness we need to be acceptable to God, or justified.  This gift belongs to all who receive it by faith.  If faith is present, Christ’s righteousness is counted to the person on account of it.  They are declared and considered one with Christ; his death to sin is theirs, and thus his righteousness is theirs.  This person thus has a new identity or status as a righteous person.  This new status comes to be actualized in the person’s life as they are set free from sin and become slaves of righteousness, dying to that which is odious to God and brings death and rising to new life in the Spirit, living a life that is pleasing and acceptable to God and that fulfills the law and thus brings the reward of eternal life.  Being a slave to sin in its own nature brings death and such a person cannot please God.  Being a slave to righteousness in the Spirit in its own nature brings life and acceptance by God because it pleases him.  
The transition between talking about the gift of righteousness as a status or identity to talking about its fruit in us comes in 6:2.  Paul’s statement here reveals some things about his theology of justification:  1.  There is an assumption that what is true of our status must also be true of our actual lives.  We have been declared dead to sin.  We have been given the status, “dead to sin.”  Obviously, therefore, we must really be dead to sin, so how can we live in it any longer?  Putting this question in the context of the rest of the chapter as well as the rest of Paul’s discussion, we can say that not only is there a necessary connection and even an identity between the status change and the nature change, but that the status change is actualized and realized in the nature change.  This follows from Paul’s teaching that being sinful necessarily brings wrath and death and that being holy necessarily brings acceptance and life.  Paul connects the reward of eternal life and our acceptance before God, as well as our fulfilling the law, with the nature change and speaks of corruption as being what is reaped when we sow to the flesh and eternal life being what is reaped when we sow to the Spirit.  This is many places.  We are to be judged according to our works, good and bad, and rewarded accordingly.  We fulfill the law by living in the Spirit.  This teaching beyond Paul as well.  Also, the purpose of the status change is so that the nature change can happen, because this is what God is after – its pleases him and brings us eternal life instead of death.  2.  Obviously, also implied here is that the nature change is equivalent to the status change.  If we must be in our actual lives what we are in our status, as I showed above, obviously our actual lives cannot be less than our status.  We cannot remain sinful with regard to our actual lives if our status is changed.  We become in our actual lives what we are in status.  We are righteous before God in our status; we must be righteous before God in our actual lives.

Explore this:  Perhaps not identity and actualization; perhaps owning and using.  In this case, the difference becomes, how does Christ’s righteousness make us acceptable to God?  By changing our status, or by changing our nature?

Explore this:  Perhaps “to whom God counts righteousness” means whom God considers righteous because Christ’s righteousness has made them righteous intrinsically.  Thus, similar to “gains acceptability”.

2. Two Problems: 1.  Evil in our record or acts does not make either all bad; rather, it makes them a mix.  There is both good and bad.  This does not lesson the seriousness of the bad; it merely states the existence of both.  The Law does not demand perfection in the sense that one never has been a sinner; it requires perfection of will – Love the Lord with you whole heart, etc.  We experience a mix of good and bad wills, or moral centers and principles of choice and action.  Also, the Law is only concerned about records as evidences and expressions of a good or evil will.  It is the will alone that is under obligation and that is rewarded or punished; the act in the record is charged to our account because we – that is, our personal self or will or identity – was responsible.  Our will either hated or loved God, and the preference expressed itself in the act.  It is this preference that alone justifies or condemns the will, and thus the self.  The goal of the Law is a good will, which will express itself in good works.  The thing the Law hates is an evil will, which expresses itself in evil works.  Our record provides evidence of who we are.  2.  We cannot be justified except by being personally righteous and we cannot be condemned except by being personally sinful.  This is because the thing that calls forth God’s wrath is an evil will.  God’s wrath cannot be removed unless the thing that calls it forth is removed, and the removal of the will entails the removal of the wrath.  Similarly, God’s acceptance is elicited by nothing but a good and acceptable will, and God’s acceptance cannot be elicited therefore unless there is a good will which must be there in order for it to be elicited.

P. 94 of Hughes’ Paul’s Second Epistle to the Corinthians.  Great quite on law being fulfilled in us, the New Covenant.

This document is dated 4/25/2003.  I'm still trying to find rapport with the Reformed by emphasizing that it is the imputation (the counting ours by God) of Christ's righteousness which gives us a right to that righteousness and so to eternal life which is its reward.  But I feel there are two points of difference between myself and the Reformed: 1. I think that the infused righteousness of sanctification truly fulfills the moral requirements of God's moral law and thus truly merits eternal life, while the Reformed think the righteousness of sanctification is inherently defective, doesn't meet the law's requirements adequately, and thus does not merit God's favor such as to bring the reward of eternal life.  2. Although I grant that the imputation of Christ's righteousness is what gives us a right to Christ's righteousness, and thus to the eternal life which is its reward, yet if we are talking about what actually, immediately, causes God to be pleased with us and actually view us as righteous, it is not imputation but Christ's righteousness within us--the fruit of imputation.  Because the Reformed don't see the righteousness of sanctification to be good enough to merit God's favor, they have to look elsewhere for an immediate ground of God's viewing us as righteous and being pleased with us, and they find that ground solely in imputation apart from a consideration of infusion or inward change.

1. We are sinful and have done sinful things, and are therefore guilty in God’s sight.  Christ becomes a propitiatory sacrifice, thus fully paying the penalty for our sins.  He also merits for us by his holy life righteousness that is acceptable to God for eternal life.  He does these things for us.  It is our sins he destroys on the cross and it is our merit he earns.  Thus, because of Christ’s atonement and obedience alone, we who have no righteousness of our own become guiltless and righteous.  We add nothing at all to this: Christ’s work is the sole foundation and source of our righteousness before God.  Christ thus earns for us the status of completely new creatures in Christ.

2. We experience the fruits of Christ’s work on our behalf, which are imputed to us, as they are applied to us subjectively by the Holy Spirit.  By his power, we begin to experience the status of new creatures in our lives as we begin to live as new creatures, our sinful natures being transformed into the image of Christ in holiness.  Thus, the break from our old lives that Christ earned for us comes alive in us as we begin to change from being sinful and thus displeasing to God and become conformed to Christ’s holiness, living a life that pleases him and glorifies him, thus fulfilling the law and the purpose for which we were made.  This process of the subjective application of Christ’s work to our lives, which is never perfect in this life, begins in regeneration, continues through a life of sanctification and is completed in our glorification, when our old nature will be completely done away with and we will be perfect in holiness.

The differences between us concern certain aspects of number 2 above.  In my view, as the imputed righteousness of Christ comes alive in us, we come to be conformed personally and in our experience to our new status that Christ earned for us and imputed to us.  This means that this righteousness within us fulfills the law.  While the Reformed tradition has viewed our internal regeneration and sanctification as unable to meet the law’s requirements, I see it as capable of doing so.  Note that this does not mean that WE merit by virtue of this internal righteousness.  Our sanctification is God’s work in us, rather than being from us.  We did not produce it; it is the application to us of Christ’s imputed righteousness.  Therefore we cannot merit from it.  If it were ours inherently or intrinsically, we could merit from it, but it is not.  It is ours simply by gift.  Just as our righteousness is given to us graciously at first, so it remains ours only by God’s grace to all eternity.  Also, it adds nothing in terms of merit to the right we have to eternal life by Christ’s imputed righteousness.  Christ’s righteousness imputed to us gives us our full right to eternal life; our sanctification is simply the application of it to us.  It realizes or brings us into the experience of  this right in our lives and experience, but it does not add to it, as if Christ’s righteousness imputed is not complete or sufficient.  It is like the difference between buying a house and moving into it.  The house is yours from the moment the purchase is completed.  Your moving into it doesn’t add to your possession of it as a right, but it is the fruit of your possession of it.  It is your coming into what you have been given.  It realizes your new possession.  I view our sanctification as bringing home to us and actualizing in us and in our experience the conformity to the law Christ has merited for us.  Christ earned for us the satisfaction of our sin; we come into the experience of that in our repentance and crucifying of the flesh, which kill our sins and separate us from them.  Christ earned for us righteousness which is pleasing and acceptable to God and which merits the reward of eternal life; we come into the experience of that in our sanctification and good works, which please God and thus merit the promised reward.  In this sense, our sanctification is the fruit or realization or actualization in our lives of our justification by Christ’s imputed righteousness.  Related to this, another difference between this view and the Reformed view that I see revolves around what is sometimes called the ‘formal cause’ of justification, by which I mean the immediate basis for us being pleasing to God and attaining a moral fitness, or merit, for the reward of eternal life.  While as I said above, our sanctification doesn’t add to Christ’s work as it is imputed to us, but rather actualizes it, it does indeed actualize it.  Thus the immediate basis for God’s moral approbation of us is Christ’s righteousness as it exists in us, as it has been infused into us by the Holy Spirit.  Our sanctification doesn’t add to our right to eternal life, but that right is only realized by the righteousness being in us.  To return to the house analogy mentioned above, your right to your new house is not added to by your moving into the house, but until you do so, your life is still the same experientially as it was before you gained a right to the house.  In the Reformed view, since sanctification is not seen as matching up to Christ’s imputed righteousness but as being essentially defective as to moral fitness to reward, the immediate ground of our change of relationship to God cannot be Christ’s righteousness being in us, but must remain Christ’s righteousness outside of us.  We might express this, as long as it is understood the way I have expressed it here, by saying that the ultimate cause of our acceptance with God in both views is the righteousness of Christ imputed to us, but the immediate cause of our acceptance, or the immediate basis of our change of status experientially or as actualized, is Christ’s righteousness imputed in the Reformed view and Christ’s righteousness infused in my view.  That is, the right to eternal life works or comes into effect for us simply by being imputed in the Reformed view; it works or comes into effect for us by being infused into us in my view.

This document is dated 4/27/2003.  In looking for points of agreement with the Reformed position, I emphasize again that we are justified by Christ's righteousness imputed to us.  I also strongly affirm the Calvinistic doctrines regarding election and free will.  (Though I don't have time here to go into this, I should note that, while my comments on election and free will will sound harsh to Catholic ears to some degree, really I was not affirming anything here substantially that I would deny today as a Catholic.  For example, here I deny the cooperation of the will with grace, but if you look closely you will see that what I am denying is a kind of cooperation where there is thought to be an independent contribution of the will--that is, the will contributes something of its own which is not itself also a product of grace.  I would not have denied that the will, moved by grace, cooperates with grace, but my language reflects Calvinist rather than Catholic terminology.  This is a good example of how Calvinists and Catholics can talk past each other.  When Calvinists hear "the will cooperating with grace," they think of the Semipelagian idea that the will contributes some saving good of its own apart from grace, and so they deny this.  But when they deny it, Catholics hear a denial of free will's involvement altogether, while, in reality, Calvinists do affirm the involvement of free will moved by grace.  See here and here for more on these subjects.)

In my points of disagreement, as with the previous document, I state that Reformed and Augustinians disagree in that Augustinians hold sanctification to be the immediate ground of God's acceptance of us in terms of actual experience (while imputation is fully sufficient to give us a right to that experience because it is God's declaring this experience to belong to us), while the Reformed hold that imputation alone is the immediate ground of God's being pleased with us and accepting us as actually righteous.  I also again state that the Reformed believe that sanctification, even when completed after this life, is inadequate to meet the law's standards and so cannot provide the immediate ground for God's acceptance of us, whereas Augustinians hold the opposite.

I make use of Francis Turretin (the great seventeenth-century Reformed theologian) in my attempt to bridge my gap with the Reformed view.  Particularly, I cite his five reasons why sanctification cannot be meritorious, and I show where I agree and disagree with Turretin.  One note here:  I argue with Turretin about whether a work has to be "undue" in order to be meritorious.  As I will note in another document later on, Turretin's statement confused me here because it seemed too "commercial"--as if we were talking about "merit" as a kind of transaction where I am giving one thing to buy something else.  In my view, "merit" is more about moral fitness--that is, that something is either pleasing or displeasing to God and so attains God's reward or punishment.  I eventually come to understand Turretin to be saying that we cannot give God something of our own which is not his gift in order to intrinsically, without grace, deserve God to give us eternal life.  Interpreted that way, I would agree with Turretin, for all our goodness is a product and gift of God's grace.  We can only "buy" God's pleasure with the gifts he has freely given us.  At any rate, I am attempting here to use Turretin's arguments to show that my own view, even on Turretin's Reformed terms, cannot be considered to amount to a denial of justification by Christ's righteousness in favor of a doctrine of justification by our own merit.

POINTS OF AGREEMENT:
1. Out of the mass of corruption and evil that fallen man has become, God has elected a certain number to eternal life out of his free grace alone, without foresight of faith or any good works in anyone.  We all deserve nothing but hell, but God has chosen to save some out of his mercy alone.
2. God sent Christ to purchase redemption for his elect by taking upon himself our sins, suffering for them and satisfying God’s justice for them, and meriting for us by his holy life, sacrifice, and resurrection righteousness.  By virtue of his satisfaction and righteousness, which he imputes to us, we come to be forgiven of our sins and to possess a righteousness which is acceptable to God and his law and which merits eternal life.  Thus, Christ’s sacrifice and righteousness imputed to us is the meritorious cause of our justification.
3. God applies the benefits of Christ’s atonement to us by uniting us to Christ through the Holy Spirit.
4. Because we are only justified by Christ’s righteousness and not by our own, we in ourselves always have deserved and always will deserve nothing but hell and can never merit anything good from God.  All our merit is God’s gift, and we rely on him for it completely and give him all the glory.  We are thus justified by grace alone through faith alone and not by works to any degree.
5. When God regenerates us, he works through his Spirit with effectual and irresistible power, so that our conversion is accomplished not by grace cooperating with our free will, but by grace alone, without any contribution from our free will.  Our good will is entirely a product of grace.  Likewise, the preservation and growth of holiness in us is by God’s grace alone, without contribution from our free will in such a way that free will contributes something not itself given it by grace, and thus God assures that by his grace alone we will never fall away but will persevere to the end.

POINTS OF DISAGREEMENT:
1. While we both agree that Christ’s righteousness imputed to us gives us the full right to a status of righteousness before God and thus to eternal life, because it is the meritorious cause of our justification, and that nothing can ever be or need ever be added to that merit, we disagree over how we actually come into our possession of Christ’s righteousness, how it becomes actualized as ours or how it is applied to us.  The difference between these two things can be compared to the difference between purchasing a house and moving into it.  In the classic Reformed view, our possession of Christ’s righteousness is actualized by means of an external actualization which in itself does not involve any internal change (although internal change is inseparable from it and always accompanies it).  In the Augustinian view, our ownership of Christ’s righteousness is actualized by means of its being imparted to us and becoming our character internally.  This imparted righteousness is identical with our regeneration and sanctification.  Thus, in the Reformed view, the immediate ground of our becoming morally acceptable to God and his law is Christ’s righteousness considered only as imputed or as external to us and our character.  In the Augustinian view, the immediate ground of our becoming morally acceptable to God and his law is Christ’s righteousness as it exists within us and has become our character.
2. In accordance with the difference just mentioned, the Reformed and Augustinian positions differ also on the value of our inherent righteousness, or the righteousness we have by virtue of being new creatures in Christ.  In the Reformed view, this righteousness is considered inadequate to fulfill the requirements of God’s law, which points out the need for another external righteousness to accomplish that task so that we might be justified.  In the Augustinian view, Christ’s righteousness imparted is considered adequate to fulfill the requirements of the law (though we recognize and point out that we have not come into a full possession of it yet and thus that there is a remnant of sin in us which still draws God’s disapproval – and yet our dominant character is in accordance with the law because grace reigns in us.  Eventually, after this life, we will be made perfectly conformable to the law by virtue of internal righteousness.).  There is thus no need for any other righteousness besides Christ’s righteousness imparted to us in regeneration and sanctification.

In order to clear some of the understanding of the Augustinian view with regard to the issue of merit, it is helpful to examine typical Reformed explanations for why we cannot merit by virtue of our sanctification.  What we will see is that although I disagree about some of these points, I agree on at least one of them and thus, by typical Reformed standards, my view does not claim that we merit anything with God and is not a doctrine of justification by works but one of justification by grace (which I have always affirmed anyway).
Francis Turretin can express the standard approach to this in Reformed literature.  According to Turretin, these five conditions are demanded for “true merit’:
1. It must be undue.  That is, it cannot be owed to God as a debt.
2. It must be our own.  It cannot be the gift of God.
3. It must be absolutely perfect.
4. It must be proportionate to the reward.
5. A reward must be due to it by justice.
My (very brief and partial) response to these is as follows:
1. I do not think merit must be undue to be true merit.  In this case, there could be no true merit in all of reality, since the nature of obedience is that it is fulfilling a requirement.  Certainly, our obedience which we render to God in sanctification is a debt and is not undue, but it is still true merit nonetheless.  I define merit not as “giving someone what is not due to them” but as “moral fitness to a reward.”
2. I agree with Turretin here.  We cannot merit by virtue of something that is a gift.  If our sanctification is a gift of grace, then it is not our merit in the sense Turretin is discussing here.  We merit nothing by it.  It is ours not intrinsically but simply because it is given to us.
3. I understand the relationship between our imperfections and our obedience differently from Turretin, so I do not think this requirement successfully disqualifies our sanctification from being meritorious.  But I cannot explain further now.
4. I believe our sanctification is proportionate to the reward of eternal life, in the same way our sin is proportionate to eternal death.
5. I believe that our sanctification has eternal life due to it as a matter of justice (although I understand this not in the sense that it is undue or not a debt but in the sense that it has a “moral fitness” to the reward).

Obviously, this brings up much to discuss.  What I have endeavored to show here is simply that by Turretin’s requirements,who is representative of typical Reformed requirements generally, my view excludes human merit from justification, and I accept that judgment and indeed affirm it strongly.  My view is justification by grace through faith and not justification by works.

This document is dated 5/8/2003.  Here I attempt, briefly, to restate my own position in language amenable to Reformed people.  I do so by defining "merit" in the sense of "personal merit, what belongs to me apart from it being a gift of grace," and in that sense I affirm that we have no personal merit.  Our merit is solely a gift, meaning it can only be imputed to us (declared ours by God as a free gift), and sanctification does not add to that but is nothing more than the fruit of that imputation worked out in our actual experience.  Sanctification, being a gift from God, gives us no personal merit, though it does please God.  If we had imputation without sanctification, we would have a right to please God and be acceptable to him in actuality and experience but we would never actually attain to this.  If we had sanctification without imputation, we would, in our experience, be pleasing to God, but we would not have a right to be pleasing to God.

Pastor Wallace,

Here’s another attempt at a perspective on my position to add to our progress in clarifying my ideas:

As sinners, we cannot meet the law’s demands and so are condemned by it.  However, Christ has satisfied the law and merited righteousness for us.  Those who by God’s grace have faith have their sins pardoned and Christ’s righteousness imputed to them, and by this and this alone they are justified, or declared right before God and his law.  This righteous status is not based on our works or even on God’s work in us, but solely on the basis of Christ’s imputed righteousness.  Inseparably accompanying this new status is our sanctification, whereby we are conformed in our inner character and experience to what we already have by status.  This sanctification is the inworking in our experience of our outward status, and therefore presupposes the status and doesn’t add anything to it and is not the basis of it.  Justification by imputed righteousness gives us all we need with regard to merit and right to God’s favor and acceptance.  Sanctification makes us inwardly pleasing to God and fit to dwell with his holiness, and brings us to experience what we have been given by right of imputation.  These are inseparable aspects of salvation and our union with Christ (as Calvin said, “Is Christ divided?”) and indeed are interwoven and imply each other.  Insofar as we must distinguish, we must attribute the merit to the imputed righteousness, which the internal righteousness forms no part of the basis of, and the experience to the internal righteousness.  If we were to ask what would happen if we could have one without the other, we must first answer, it cannot be, since they are intrinsically inseparable and imply each other and are absurd without each other.  But if we try to make the division, we must say that if we were to have the imputed righteousness without the inward, we would never come to experience what we have by right; we would never please God, though we would merit his acceptance.  If we were to have the inward sanctification without the outward status, we would be pleasing to God and experience his pleasure without having any merit before the law making us acceptable to God, and on the contrary would merit rejection and wrath from God by his law.

This document is dated 5/12/2003.  Here I succinctly state what I perceive to be the most fundamental points of difference between my own Augustinian view and the Reformed view.  It is similar to what I've stated in previous documents.  I add here that even if we say that sanctification is a fruit of imputation and is therefore grounded in imputation rather than the other way around (because our receiving righteousness in our actual lives and experience is a fruit of God's deciding to grant us ownership of that righteousness and thereby make it legally ours), yet there is a very real sense in which imputation is grounded in sanctification.  Imputation only gives us a right to be acceptable as righteous before God because it anticipates sanctification which is what, in actuality, makes us righteous before God.  Imputation is a promise that we will be sanctified and thus be acceptable to God.  The substance and fulfillment of imputation is sanctification.

Points of disagreement:
1. In my view, Christ’s righteousness within us (especially considered as completed after our death and resurrection) truly matches the righteous status given us.  That is, it truly conforms to the law and thus truly merits eternal life.  In the Protestant view, it is considered imperfect (even when sanctification is completed, due to past sin) and thus never conforms to the law and merits eternal life.
2. In my view, while our status comes before our sanctification and thus our sanctification is in a real sense based on our status rather than the other way around, still our status finds its grounding in our sanctification in that without that it would be an inappropriate status.  To use an analogy, if a frog is declared by an act of omnipotent law to be a human being and given that status, it is necessary that the frog then actually become a human being.  If he did not, the status would be inappropriate and in fact a lie, seeing it never has any correspondence with any reality.  The declaration only makes sense if the frog then becomes in reality what it has been declared to be.  So the reality that makes appropriate and truthful the declaration that the ungodly are now godly, or righteous, is that the ungodly then become godly, and in that sense the status is grounded in it.  The status goes before, but still has reference to the subsequent change.  In the Protestant view, no one ever becomes actually righteous (in the sense of “conformed to the law so as to fulfill it and merit eternal life”), and so the reality which grounds the status must be found in something other than the subsequent change.  It seems to me it is rooted, in the classic Protestant view, in the declaration and status itself, so that imputed righteousness refers only to itself and has no reference to the subsequent change (although the subsequent change inseparably and infallibly accompanies it).

This document is dated 5/13/2003.  Once again, I articulate my own view using the language of imputation and sanctification.  In my version of this, "imputation" means that God has promised us Christ's righteousness and legally transferred ownership of it to us, making it ours by a legal declaration.  As a result of this, he actually gives us Christ's righteousness, and all its benefits, when he sanctifies us.  Really, we could say that, in my view, what is promised in imputation is "that Christ's righteousness will be given to us, infused into us, making us righteous, and in that way make us actually morally pleasing and acceptable to God and thus fit for the reward of eternal life which is the natural and appropriate fruit of his being pleased with us."  Really, what is imputed is sanctification, and then, obviously, receiving sanctification fulfills the promise of imputation and actualizes it.  It is like buying a book on Amazon.com.  Once you've paid for the book it is legally yours, but you don't get anything out of that until the book actually arrives in the mail.  In the Reformed view, on the other hand, because they hold that the righteousness of sanctification never really meets the standards of God's law so as to be morally acceptable to him and thus merit the reward of eternal life, they have to look for another way in which imputation is actualized, and they look just to the imputation itself apart from sanctification.  Merely by imputation alone, not only are we given a right to be made acceptable to God, but we are actually, in reality and in our experience, made right with God, and he is wholly pleased with us and thus rewards us with eternal life.  This would be like getting the "your order has been received" email from Amazon.com and finding in that the complete fulfillment of buying the book, without any consideration of the book itself ever being received (and, in fact, the book is never really received--that is, our sanctification, in the Reformed view, never meets the standards of "acceptable righteousness" in God's law).  This is how I viewed the Reformed view at this time and thus why I considered my Augustinian view to differ from it.  But, as you can see, I'm working hard to see if I can understand the Reformed language in a better way, a way that would reconcile it with Augustinianism, and if I can state my Augustinian view in a way that would be true to it but would also pass the acceptability test among the Reformed.

My frog story, I think, helps to bring out what I'm trying to say here.  I'm still using that analogy to this day to talk about this.

Justification:  We are sinful and have done sinful things, and are therefore guilty in God’s sight.  Christ becomes a propitiatory sacrifice, thus fully paying the penalty for our sins.  He also merits for us by his holy life righteousness that is acceptable to God for eternal life.  He does these things for us.  It is our sins he destroys on the cross and it is our merit he earns.  Thus, because of Christ’s atonement and obedience alone, we who have no righteousness of our own become guiltless and righteous.  We add nothing at all to this: Christ’s work is the sole foundation and source of our righteousness before God.  Christ thus earns for us the status of completely new creatures in Christ.

Sanctification:  We experience the fruits of Christ’s work on our behalf as they are applied to us subjectively by the Holy Spirit.  By his power, we begin to experience the status of new creatures in our lives as we begin to live as new creatures, our sinful natures being transformed into the image of Christ in holiness.  Thus, the break from our old lives that Christ earned for us comes alive in us as we begin to change from being sinful and thus displeasing to God and become conformed to Christ’s holiness, living a life that pleases him and glorifies him, thus fulfilling the law and the purpose for which we were made.  This process of the subjective application of Christ’s work to our lives, which is never perfect in this life, begins in regeneration, continues through a life of sanctification and is completed in our glorification, when our old nature will be completely done away with and we will be perfect in holiness.

We can see from the above that sanctification is the fruit of justification, as these terms are defined above.  Christ’s work on our behalf is legally declared to be ours, both for pardon and for merit.  God says, in effect, “I legally declare Christ’s satisfaction for sin and his righteousness to belong to Mark Hausam, with all the implications and benefits thereof.”  And the result of this legal declaration is that I now own Christ’s righteousness and thus come to experience (partly in this life, wholly in eternity) the benefits of being righteous like Christ:  Christ has friendship with the Father; so do I.  Christ has a true vision of the ugliness of sin; so do I.  Christ recognizes his Father as supremely valuable and praiseworthy, and he loves him and delights in him with his whole heart; so do I.  Christ lives a life that is pleasing to his Father and thus gains his Father’s approval and reward; so do I.  All that Christ has because of who he is as a righteous Son, I have as well because God has given it to me and declared it legally mine.  Thus, sanctification is the fruit of justification.  When someone buys a house, once the house is legally declared to belong to him, he then receives all of the benefits of the house, including getting to move into it and live in it.

Let me illustrate thus with a story:  Once upon a time, there was a frog who wanted to be a prince.  Specifically, he admired the handsomeness of princes and was painfully aware that frogs do not usually get high marks in this department.  So he went to the local governor (who was a very magical person) and asked him to make him a prince.  The governor made up a contract which declared that the identity of prince was now legally granted to the frog with all the benefits thereof, especially handsomeness.  The governor asked the frog to sign on the dotted line, telling him that once he did so, the legal transaction would be complete.  So, excitedly, the frog signed his name (don’t ask me how) on the dotted line.  As soon as he had done so, he was magically transformed into a handsome prince, and ended up marrying some princess and ruling over some kingdom somewhere, living, of course, happily ever after.

What I want to point out in this story is the unbreakable connection between the legal declaration that the frog is now a prince and his immediate transformation into a prince, with all the handsomeness thereof.  If the legal contract was not going to be a fake, the frog had to have the transformation.  If he remained a frog, the contract would prove false and broken, because what was “deeded over” to the frog was, among other things, handsomeness.  He wanted to look like a prince, probably to please a princess or something.  The contract was fulfilled in the transformation.  The transformation was the fruit of the contract.  Similarly, when Christ’s righteousness is “deeded over” to us, the fruits of that transaction include becoming personally righteous and pleasing to God.  If we are not sanctified, then we remain loathsome to God and never experience the benefits of being righteous like Christ, and the legal imputation of Christ’s righteousness is broken because we do not actually get to experience what was legally declared to be ours.  So sanctification is coming to experience in our state what we have been legally given with regard to our status.  It is the imputation bearing its fruits and effects and therefore being fulfilled.

It is important to note in all of this that we are justified solely by the righteousness of another, of Christ, and not at all by our own righteousness.  When we had no righteousness of our own, God declared Christ’s righteousness ours, and this is the sole basis for our right to forgiveness of sins and eternal life as God’s children.  This imputed righteousness brings us in itself, before God’s law, the status of being forgiven and righteous, logically prior to its bearing its fruit in us.  Indeed, this imputed righteousness comes alive in us and in our experience in sanctification, but this doesn’t add to Christ’s merit imputed to us, but is the outworking and fruit of it.  This sanctification, at least when it is finished, will match up fully to the status, and thus will be truly acceptable to the law, or meritorious.  But we will never merit anything by it, it will never be meritorious to us, because it is not our righteousness but is the outworking of Christ’s righteousness imputed to us.  It does not add to Christ’s righteousness imputed, but is its fruit, or outworking, in our lives and experience.  We have never had, we don’t have now, and we never will have any merit of our own, but our only merit is that of Christ imputed to us graciously, which imputation bears the fruit of holiness in our lives by the grace of God.

This document is dated 5/13/2003.  It continues along the same lines as the previous documents, and shows me continuing to try to figure out how to articulate my position in a Reformed-friendly way.  Again, I light on the distinction between sanctification meriting God's acceptance and favor and eternal life vs. us meriting God's favor by our own personal merit as if we contributed something of our own apart from grace.  If the Reformed mean the latter when they reject the concept of "merit," then I can agree with them, but not if they mean the former (that is, not if they mean that sanctification itself, in itself, considered in its own nature, is not good enough to be acceptable to God.)

1.  As creatures, we are incapable of merit.  God can never owe anything good to us as a matter of justice, though he can owe evil to us.  Even without saving grace, everything we have is purely a gift, and if we receive any blessing, it is simply that God has freely chosen to bless us.  We are nothing in ourselves, and God owes nothing good to nothing.  But when we corrupt his gifts, he truly, and in strict justice, owes us condemnation.
2.  However, God is bound by his goodness to bless his own works and image, since he is bound to favor himself and his glory which his works and image reflect.  So when God freely chose to give us being, he bound himself to bless us in proportion to the value he put upon us in his grace.  He is therefore bound to respect his image in us, to delight in our happiness and to hate our suffering, but only in proportion to our worth as those made in God's image.  However, since our worth even as endowed with temporal life is nothing compared to God, God is never bound to give eternal blessings to us as creatures.
3.  This is compounded by our sinful condition.  Being sinners, we not only do not deserve eternal blessings, but we, in strict justice, deserve eternal condemnation under the eternal wrath of God.  In ourselves, we are only sinful creatures, and so we can never deserve anything except God's wrath.
4.  God has chosen to save his elect people out of the world through Jesus Christ, and to give us eternal blessings in him.  Christ accomplished this redemption and eternal life for us by taking upon himself our sins and suffering for them, and by his obedient life producing for us a righteousness, or merit, which deserves eternal life in strict justice, because it is an infinite righteousness, being God's.  God is bound to reward this righteousness by his goodness.  In salvation, God gives this righteousness to us.  Thus, we who have no merit of our own and could never have any merit, being nothing but sinful creatures in ourselves without grace, gain merit purely as a gift through Christ, and thus strict justice comes to demand not our death but our life.  The unrighteous receive the righteousness of another as a gift and through this righteousness alone are saved from hell and rewarded with eternal life.  Though there are many aspects and descriptions of this redemption, there are two main components, or steps, which are spelled out that concern us now:
a. First, we are declared righteous.  We are declared to be free from the guilt of sin and fully in accord with God's law.  This declaration is on the basis of Christ's righteousness as it is counted to us, credited to our account, or imputed to us.  Considered as having no righteousness in us, or as ungodly, we are declared righteous, or conformed to the law, on the basis of the imputed righteousness of Christ.  We thus come to have the status of righteousness before God and his law based on Christ's righteousness imputed to us.
b.  Having this new status, we become conformed inwardly to it by Christ's righteousness coming to live in us.  Our character, life, and experience come to match the status given to us.  We come to be in reality, in our character and our lives, what we have been declared to be in our status.  As we have been declared righteous and conformed to the law by imputation, so we now become internally righteous and conformed to the law by the impartation of Christ's righteousness within us, or by participation in Christ's righteousness, resulting in good works.  While this change has occured qualitatively and substantially at the moment of conversion, it is not perfect in this life, and awaits its completion until death and the resurrection.  Until then there is a constant struggle against the old nature, the remnant of sin that is still in us.  This sanctification adds nothing to our status, which is complete logically prior to it.  It is simply the fruit and outworking of imputed righteousness in our lives.  Though it is acceptable to the law and therefore by the law merits God’s favor and pleasure, we merit nothing by it, since it is not our righteousness but only the outworking of Christ’s imputed righteousness in us through the agency of the Holy Spirit, and thus does not meet the requirement for a human meritorious work.

This document is dated 5/28/2003.  I try to distinguish in what way sanctification is meritorious and in what way it is not, and in doing so I again state how I understand the relationship between imputation (which gives us a right to Christ's righteousness and all its benefits) and sanctification (which delivers to us in actualization and in our experience Christ's righteousness and all its benefits).  I also here bring in David Brainerd, the famous Puritan missionary, whose biography was written by Jonathan Edwards, as an ally, showing from quotations how he, too, understood sanctification to be inherently meritorious (though, unlike me, he doesn't actually use that word).  I also appeal to William Perkins, another famous Puritan theologian.  Quotes like these helped me to come to the conclusion that I could understand Reformed language in a more Augustinian way and articulate my own Augustinianism in Reformed language, thus bridging the gap between my view and the Reformed.

The Brainerd quotes and the Perkins quote are in documents that are quite old and in the public domain.  I had ready access to these because at this time I was working full-time on a PhD thesis which involved reading a ton of Puritan and Edwardsian literature.  You can see the Brainerd quotations here.

Justification by imputed righteousness gives us the right to eternal life, because it gives us the satisfaction and merit we need to fulfill the law’s requirements.  Sanctification is the working out in our experience of the righteousness we have been given a right to in justification.  The satisfaction of Christ comes alive in our experience as we suffer with Christ, see the full heinousness of sin, and die to sin and put it to death throughout our life.  The righteousness of Christ comes alive in our experience as we become holy and morally pleasing to God.

What is merit?  I define merit as a moral fitness to a reward.  When there is a moral beauty which necessarily calls forth God’s favor and thus a favorable response from him, there is merit.  Likewise, demerit is a moral ugliness which warrants God’s displeasure and an unfavorable reaction from him.

In what way is sanctification not meritorious?
1. Sanctification is not meritorious in that it does not give us the right to Christ’s merit and thus to eternal life.  This is accomplished antecedently in the imputation of righteousness.  Even after sanctification is accomplished, we still have a right to Christ’s righteousness and thus to eternal life through it only by imputation.  The relationship between the two is like the difference between having a piece of software given to you and installing it on your computer (right and experience).  If it is given to you by a friend but you don’t install it, you have a right to it and to what it can do, but you don’t get to experience it.  If you were to install it without it having been given to you, you would get the benefit of it but you wouldn’t have a right to it.  This is the same as justification and sanctification.  The imputation gives us a right to Christ’s righteousness; sanctification is the “installation,” as it were, of Christ’s righteousness in our experience.  In this sense, the merit is wholly in the imputation and not in the sanctification.  This is what Augustine was pointing to (though his articulation was different) when he said that when God rewards us, he is merely crowning his own gifts.

In what way is sanctification meritorious?
1. Sanctification is meritorious in the sense that it truly makes us morally pleasing, or beautiful, to God.  That is to say, God truly delights in his image in us when he remakes us in it in sanctification.  God cannot but delight in a heart that loves him, since he loves love to himself.  God finds us morally repulsive in an unsanctified, unrepentant state, which is why we can’t be in his presence in that condition, since no unclean thing can be in his presence.  He cannot even look on sin.  So when we die to sin with Christ, when our flesh is crucified with Christ, we are cleansed of this impurity and God no longer is repulsed morally by us, and when we are reborn or resurrected with Christ to a new life of holiness, like a phoenix rising out of its own ashes, we become morally beautiful and delightful to him, and he cannot but delight in his work and image in us.  In this way, sanctification makes it fitting that we should be delighted in by God, and this is what I mean when I call sanctification meritorious.

David Brainerd seems to express the same thing I mean when I say that sanctification is meritorious in these two quotes from his diary (published by Jonathan Edwards):
444 – “The exercise of these Godlike tempers, wherein the soul acts in a kind of concert with God, and would be and do everything that is pleasing to God; this, I saw, would stand by the soul in a dying hour; for God must, I think, ‘deny himself’ [II Tim. 2:13] if he casts away ‘his own image’ [Gen. 1:27], even the soul that is one in desires with himself.”
449 – “I saw further that as this divine temper, whereby the soul exalts God and treads self in the dust, is wrought in the soul by God’s discovering his own glorious perfections ‘in the face of Jesus Christ’ [II Cor. 4:6] to it, by the special influences of the Holy Spirit, so he cannot but have regard to it, as his own work; and as it is his image in the soul, he cannot but take delight in it.  Then I saw again that if God should slight and reject his own moral image, he must needs ‘deny himself’ [II Tim. 2:13]; which he cannot do.  And thus I saw the stability and infallibility of this religion, and that those who are truly possessed of it have the most complete and satisfying evidence of their being interested in all the benefits of Christ’s redemption, having their hearts conformed to him; and that these and these only are qualified for the employments and entertainments of God’s kingdom of glory; as none but these have any relish for the business of heaven, which is to ascribe glory to God and not to themselves; and that God (though I would speak it with great reverence of his Name and perfections) cannot, without denying himself, finally cast such away.”

William Perkins expresses something like part of what I mean by our dying with Christ to sin cleansing us from our moral repugnance to God in this quote:
442-443 – “In man wee must consider his estate by nature, and his estate by grace.  In the first, hee and his flesh are all one, for they are as man and wife: therefore one is accessary to the doings of the other.  When the flesh sinneth, the man also sinneth, that is in subjection to the flesh; yea when the flesh perisheth, the man likewise perisheth beeing in this estate, with the flesh: a louing couple, they are, they lieu and die together.  But in the estate of grace though a man haue the flesh in him, yet hee and his flesh are diuorced asunder.  This diuorcement is made, when a man beginnes to dislike and to hate his flesh, and the euill fruites of it: this separation beeing made, they are no more one, but twaine, and the one hath nothing to doe with the other.  In this case though the flesh beget sinne and perish therefore, yet the Christian man shall not incurre damnation for it.  To come more neere the matter; you say the flesh begets in you wauerings, doubtings, and distrustings: what then? it troubleth you, but feare not, remember your estate: you are diuorced from the flesh, and you are new married unto Christ: if these sinnes bee laide at your doore, account them not as your children, but renounce them as bastards: say with Paul, I doubt indeede, but I hate my doubtings, and I am no cause of these, but the flesh in me which shal perish, when I shall bee saued by Christ.”

This document is dated 6/6/2003.  A lot of interesting things here.  I'm starting to think that I can reconcile with the Reformed position, but I'm not quite sure.  I'm more and more feeling I can use the Reformed language in articulating my position.  (Note that my Augustinian position hasn't changed a hair's breadth throughout any of this, nor will it change in what comes later.  All that is changing is my sense of whether or not I can understand the Reformed view in a way consistent with my Augustinianism and thus whether or not I can express my Augustinianism, non-deceptively, in Reformed terms.)

One interesting thing here is that I articulate what basically amounts to the Catholic doctrine of the "temporal consequences of sin," which is the root of things like penance, purgatory, indulgences, etc. (see here and here for more on this)--though, at this time, I don't think I even had any of these Catholic ideas on my radar screen.  My own thinking, rooted in Scripture and reason, basically came to a Catholic point of view on satisfaction and penance without being brought there by the Catholic tradition itself.

I've got quotes here from the great Puritan theologian and philosopher Jonathan Edwards that show that he viewed the meritoriousness of moral goodness in a way similar to how I did (though he would never have put it that way, and I would say now that other things he says elsewhere seem to critique the Augustinian view).  Moral goodness, by its intrinsic nature, is pleasing to God and deserving of reward, just as moral evil is displeasing and deserving of punishment.  It follows from this that inasmuch as a moral creature is morally good, he deserves happiness (in the sense of having a moral fitness to it), and the reverse.  But this implies that unsanctification is intrinsically connected to being unacceptable to God and receiving punishment from him, while being in a perfectly sanctified state would imply being perfectly acceptable to God and rewarded by him with happiness.  So, as with Brainerd and Perkins (and others), I found things in Reformed authors which are inconsistent with what I had thought to be the Reformed view, which makes sanctification not inherently pleasing to God such as to be acceptable to him.  These authors seemed to suggest that the Reformed view could be understood in an Augustinian manner (despite the inability of these same Reformed authors to grasp that), and thus encouraged me to think I might be able to reconcile myself to the Reformed point of view.

I give here what I think is a helpful way of distinguishing how sanctification is meritorious from how it is not and in this way express a possible difference and concern with the Reformed position:  "Perhaps it might be appropriate to represent my belief here by saying that I believe that if sanctification were our work, we would merit by it (in the sense of being intrinsically worthy of praise eternally because of it), but since it is not, we don’t.  This point, and the quote from the confession, seem to be saying that even if sanctification were our work intrinsically without grace, we would not be worthy of praise and eternal life for it.  This seems to deny that God is ever truly pleased with his work in us."  This gets at, I think, the key issue.  Why is sanctification not meritorious?  Is it because there is something inherently defective about it in its own nature, or is it defective only when it is considered as if it were an offering from us trying to earn something from it as if we had produced it ourselves by ourselves (rather than it being a product of God's grace)?  To use an analogy, if my friend gives me $20, the $20, in its own nature, is sufficient to buy, say, a pair of gloves.  On the other hand, we wouldn't say that I had earned a pair of gloves by using the $20 to pay for them, for the $20 was a gift.  So we can talk about the $20 meriting the gloves in one way but not in another.  I think a key point upon which this attempted reconciliation of Augustinianism and Reformed thought turns is going to be whether sanctification, in its own nature, meets the requirements of God's law to be acceptable to him, or whether it does not.  If it does not, then there is an unavoidable breach between Augustinianism and the Reformed position.  If it does, then there might be reconciliation.  (At this time, I was starting to think that perhaps reconciliation was possible.  Now, 16-19 years later, I've begun to reassess this and wonder if the gap might indeed be unbridgeable.)

The state of things at this point:

I can agree that all our merit is based in imputed righteousness.  We do not merit by our works, or by our sanctification, but only by the imputation of Christ’s righteousness.  I agree with the classic Reformed position that sanctification cannot be meritorious.

I would insist, however, that sanctification is truly morally pleasing to God.  God delights in it.  I would also say that unholiness in our life, even given justification, is morally displeasing to God.  In an unholy condition, we are morally repulsive to him, and he cannot accept us in that condition, even though justified.  This seems allowable to the traditional Reformed explanation, as they assert that God will allow no unclean thing into his presence, and so we must be sanctified.  Saying our sanctified state is truly pleasing to God seems agreeable to classic Reformed sentiment as well.  I would also suggest that when we are sanctified, it is by a death to sin and by a rebirth in righteousness.  It involves suffering, as we see our sins for what they really are, understand God’s wrath and hatred against them, and are truly repulsed by them ourselves and sorry for them.  It also involves suffering as we endure the testimonies of God’s displeasure against sin in this world in the form of many temporal sufferings, and as we must struggle against sin and put it to death.  I acknowledge that our sufferings, repentance, and dying to sin do not give us a right to pardon and that we do not satisfy by them, since pardon, like positive merit, is fully based in the imputation of Christ’s suffering and righteousness.  However, there is an appropriateness to the fact that we must die in order to live, and there would be a moral unfitness if we were to be sanctified without the suffering that comes with the transition.  It is appropriate, in other words, that we see our condition for what it truly is and that God manifest his displeasure against it before it is wholly eradicated in our lives.

I anticipate that the above will be fully agreeable to you.  We may also be able to come to terms with my agreement with David Brainerd’s comments (which can be found in one of the earlier documents I sent you).  I would agree with Brainerd that when God recreates his image in us in sanctification, it is pleasing to him such that he cannot but delight in it and cannot finally cast those who possess it away without denying himself.  God, loving himself and his glory supremely, necessarily loves his own image in us and it is appropriate therefore for him to crown it, though we merit nothing by it.  Let me give a couple of quotes from Jonathan Edwards illustrating this a little more:

“Worthiness is of the essence of moral goodness, and universally and necessarily attends it, as much as guilt or blame attends sin or moral evil.  As all moral evil is blameworthy, and worthy of abhorrence and the fruits of abhorrence, so all moral goodness is praiseworthy, worthy of acceptance, approbation, and of the fruits of acceptance and approbation;”

“The thing which makes sin hateful, is that by which it deserves punishment; which is but the expression of hatred.  And that, which renders virtue lovely, is that on account of which it is fit to receive praise and reward; which are but the expressions of esteem and love.  But that which makes vice hateful, is its hateful Nature; and that which renders virtue lovely, is its amiable Nature.  It is a certain beauty or deformity that are inherent in that good or evil will, which is the soul of virtue and vice, . . . which is their worthiness of esteem or disesteem, praise or dispraise,”

Thus, I understand Brainerd to be saying that there is a certain moral beauty in our sanctification which makes it morally appropriate for God to love it, be pleased with it, and accept it, (“Well done, good and faithful servant”) etc., just as there is a moral ugliness in our unholiness which makes it appropriate for God, in his holiness, not to accept it into his presence but to cast it out (“Without holiness no man shall see the Lord”).  We may be able to agree on this, or at least you may be able to tolerate my position here, as long as I maintain, which I do, that we do not merit anything by this holiness in us, all our merit being based solely in the imputation of Christ’s righteousness to us.  We possess a right to eternal life solely on the basis of imputation.

Here is where I see some potential problems standing in the way of our agreement which I’m not sure how to resolve or if they are resolvable yet:  I am going to, as I have before, invoke Turretin’s list of reasons why sanctification is not meritorious, and discuss my thoughts on each of them.  As I have pointed out before, this is a common list in Reformed literature of the time, with some variations but very substantial agreement (even in form):

According to Turretin, sanctification cannot be meritorious because these requirements are necessary for a meritorious work:
1. It must be undue.  That is, it cannot be owed to God as a debt.
2. It must be our own.  It cannot be the gift of God.
3. It must be absolutely perfect.
4. It must be proportionate to the reward.
5. A reward must be due to it by justice.
Before I go into an interaction with these points, I want to quote Turretin from a page before he enumerates these points:  “Biel defines merit to be ‘a work imputable to praise’ (i.e., worthy of praise) . . . .  If our opponents would be content with this meaning, there would be no controversy.  For no one denies that the good works of the believer are worthy of praise.”  This is all I want to affirm about our sanctification, as my previous discussion of the subject has hopefully made clear.  Now, on to the points:
1. This point seems to be dealing with a different definition of merit from the one I hold.  My idea of merit is a quality in something making it morally pleasing and thus worthy of praise or moral approbation, as I have said.  This point seems to think of merit in a commercial sort of way, as if we to merit means to buy something from God, to give him some kind of “money” in order to get his favor.  I don’t approve of this “money” image, nor when I speak of sanctification as being pleasing to God and worthy of praise do I mean to suggest that our sanctification buys God off.  In fact, in my understanding of merit, something cannot be meritorious unless it is owed.  Also, as creatures, God can never owe anything to us.  Thus, our reward is purely grace.  All our merit is in the imputation of Christ’s righteousness.  So God owes us nothing.
2. As I have pointed out before, I wholly agree with this point.  Surely we cannot merit anything with something that is not our own.  This is the conclusive, key point, as I see it, which forever rules out human merit.  We can never possess merit intrinsically.  All our merit is in imputation, and this point explains why.
3. If we are defining merit as ‘being pleasing to God,’ this is not true, since even in our imperfect state God’s work in us is pleasing to him.  And this is much more the case when it will be perfected in us, and God will wholly delight in his complete, perfected image in us.  We will be completely morally pleasing to God.  But if merit refers to the right to God’s favor, I agree that one sin forever eradicates our ability to merit, because, considered in ourselves without imputation, we would be forever guilty of that one sin, and all of God’s work in us would not be counted for us since it is not ours intrinsically but a gift.
4. This is one place where we may have some difficulty coming to agreement.  Now, if we are talking about ourselves and our works apart from imputation, then I agree wholeheartedly that nothing we do from ourselves or which we have a claim to intrinsically can be proportionate to the reward.  Rather, anything we as creatures can contribute, would always be an infinite distance removed from it.  But it seems that more is implied here than simply this.  The Westminster Confession says, “We cannot, by our best works, merit pardon of sin, or eternal life, at the hand of God, by reason of the great disproportion that is between them and the glory to come . . .”  One of the things this seems to be saying is that God’s work in us is not proportionate to the reward.  But I understand the reward to simply be God’s delight in us because of his work in us and the fruit of that (“Well done, good and faithful servant”).  So this seems to suggest that there is nothing in our sanctification that truly delights God such that he praises and rewards it forever.  I see our sanctification as possessing such moral beauty to God that he receives us into his presence and rewards his work in us with his eternal delight in us because we reflect him.  If this is true, it seems that our sanctification would possess a proportion to the reward, although I would again state that this doesn’t imply that we merit anything by it, since all our merit can only be in imputation.  Perhaps it might be appropriate to represent my belief here by saying that I believe that if sanctification were our work, we would merit by it (in the sense of being intrinsically worthy of praise eternally because of it), but since it is not, we don’t.  This point, and the quote from the confession, seem to be saying that even if sanctification were our work intrinsically without grace, we would not be worthy of praise and eternal life for it.  This seems to deny that God is ever truly pleased with his work in us.
5. If this refers to the concept of an undue work, my comments on point 1 apply here.  If this simply means that the work must have a moral beauty which makes it appropriate necessarily for God to love and bless it, then I agree that our sanctification possesses that, though, of course, I do not believe that we merit by it.

Summing all of this up, I can agree that our merit is wholly based in the imputation of Christ righteousness to us and not at all in our sanctification.  We only merit, or have a right to eternal life or to God’s favor, by imputation.  However, I believe that God’s work in us has such a morally beautiful character, and thus such a value to God, that he cannot but delight in it and cannot with moral appropriateness reject it, and that for eternity, and I believe that in this sense, it has a proportion to the reward, though it is not undue or merely optional, but owed to God, and required by him.

This very short document is dated 6/10/2003.  I don't really have anything to add here beyond what I've said earlier.

Merit – When something has sufficient power within itself for the attaining of something else, so that it attains it necessarily, we say it merits that thing.  Merit in a moral sense refers to the ability of righteousness, or moral beauty, to attain God’s favor and blessing.

This document is dated 6/11/2003.  Some of the above documents seem to be written as intended to be sent to someone.  This one, however, seems to be simply my own personal brainstorming notes.  I'm brainstorming how I might try to bridge the Augustinian-Reformed gap.

What I'm saying about Arminians below in the first #2 is that Calvinists typically accuse Arminians of effectively bringing in a doctrine of personal merit because they hold that the choice of the will to follow Christ is something produced from the will itself apart from grace (thus making Arminianism a form of Semipelagianism - for more on this, see here).  But this charge only holds up if the good choice of the will merits God's acceptance, which implies an Augustinian rather than a Reformed view.  In the Reformed view, because of previous sin, the good choice of the will merits nothing from God, and so it doesn't matter in terms of merit whether it comes from us ultimately or is also a product of grace.  I'm basically trying to argue that the classic Calvinist critique of Arminianism depends partly on an Augustinian understanding of good works and merit.

Some interesting stuff in the "How to proceed" paragraph.  I'm continuing to try to use Protestant authors as allies.  I believed at that time that Luther was more of an Augustinian than in sync with the Reformed on the point of how justification relates to sanctification.  I still think that Luther, at least earlier on, when he wrote Bondage of the Will, was very Augustinian (though he's got some nuances, particularly with regard to how he understands free will, that I still don't think I fully grasp yet.)  He may still have been pretty Augustinian later in his life, though he starts talking about imputation more as he gets older.  At any rate, I wanted to use him and others as allies--trying to find people Reformed people would respect saying the same things I was saying.

We can see here also where I thought my version of Augustinianism differed from the Catholic view (the "Romanist" view, as I call it here, imitating Protestant language).  I knew that the Catholic position is Augustinian, but I thought they had fudged on the doctrine of free will and grace, playing around with Semipelagianism to some degree.  I saw (and still see) Semipelagianism as indeed implying a fatal doctrine of personal merit, so I felt severely critical of Rome on that point.  (Since then, I've come to see Rome's view in a different light as I've come to understand it better, as you can see here and here.)

There is an interesting and helpful articulation of the "right vs. experience" distinction in here.  Again, what I was trying to say was that imputation gives us a legal right, a legal ownership, of Christ's righteousness and its benefits, while sanctification gives us actual, experiential possession of Christ's righteousness and its benefits.  Again, put another way (but a way I suspect would bug the Reformed significantly, but still a helpful way), imputation gives us a legal right to sanctification and its benefits, while sanctification, of course, delivers those benefits to us to actually enjoy.  It actualizes what is promised to us in imputation.  We're promised that we would love God and God would find us pleasing to him, and that comes about in sanctification.  (That's why, earlier, I said that the substance and fulfillment of imputation, in this view, is sanctification.)

The quotations are from Jonathan Edwards, from his works which are in the public domain, though these were quoted from the Yale edition of his works (though I have no idea from exactly where now, after all these years).  I was reading Edwards's works systematically in connection with the PhD thesis I was working on that I mentioned earlier.  One thing I note in Edwards below is that he said that "either an equivalent punishment, or an equivalent sorrow and repentance," could satisfy for our sins.  I found this interesting because it pointed out that repentance and (what I would now call) penance could, in principle, satisfy for previous sins, which was my view (and I now recognize in the form of the Catholic doctrine of penance or satisfaction, though the Catholic form of these ideas wasn't really on my radar screen at that time).  (See here also for more on this.)

1. Merit is of the essence of righteousness, so the degree of righteousness is proportionate to the degree of merit.
2. Aminians are accused of merit, because the soul contributing the determining factor of salvation leads to us being saved by a good act of the will.  But if acceptance of Christ merits, then we merit by God’s grace, or Augustinianism.

1. How to proceed:  1.  State position in comparison with Reformed.  Where we agree, where we disagree.  State objective, first of all to show not salvation by works, secondly to defend position.    Make sure to make use of the purchase-application idea, and perhaps quote Hodge p. 195 to help the conversation in this area.  Adam’s sin purchased the right to sin and death for us all, as we had union with him and his sin was therefore imputed to us.  Christ’s righteousness purchased the right to righteousness and eternal life for all who have union with him and therefore have his righteousness imputed to them.  We can accept that.  The only question is, does this imputation, both with Adam and with Christ, make use of or replace our own personal sinfulness and righteousness in the application of these purchased rights.  2.  State history of issue, Augustine, Romanist perversion due to free will, Luther, Calvin.  Perhaps my view can be thought of as a third option other than Rome or Calvin, but preserving Calvin’s concerns about grace and merit, and so with the Reformed against the Romanists.  3.  Quote from Bondage intro and Luther’s stuff to indicate non-meritorious in bad sense, and in what sense it is meritorious.  Perhaps quote Wright on Jansenism being a form of Calvinism and contradicting Romanist merit ideas.

1. I feel that I could not present the record of my life before God and plead it for why I should go to heaven.  It is full of evil and blemishes, and provides ample reason why I ought to go to hell.  How can I explain this from an Augustinian perspective?  Well, I think that guilt is intrinsically connected to sin, and what you are is what counts, evidenced by what you do.  The only way for us to be in heaven is if we are truly righteous and morally fit for it.  An enemy to God is not fit for it.  When I look back on a day, I see my sins, and I don’t what God to judge me on the basis of them, but he won’t because I have been personally separated from them by repentance.  But doesn’t the Bible say God judges us on our record?  Yes, but he doesn’t judge the sin without also taking into account its death and our death to it and separation from it.  So it is just for him to give us heaven.  What am I really feeling when I feel like my life is inadequate for God to judge for good?  Well, in this life, I have remnants of sin, and I am close to my past sins, so my guilt is present with me.  They remind me I am a sinner in myself.  I am only saved because God does not judge me for my sins, but pardons them.  Our memory of our sins reminds us to look at ourselves as personally undeserving, and to see our good as God’s work in us.
2. God, looking at our record for judgment, sees two principles running through it:  ourselves in ourselves, deserving hell, and grace, his work in us, deserving heaven.  The question then becomes, which prevailed in the person, which overcame the other and took possession of the soul ultimately, and that is grace.  So he rewards us with eternal life.  So we don’t want him to judge us by OUR works, but by HIS work in us, which can only be done if it reigns in us.

Right vs. Experience.  Justification and Sanctification.  We need both.  Right without experience would be to have the right or status of being pleasing to God but in actual experience to be abominable and irritating to him.  Experience without right would mean that God would in experience be pleased with us while we have no right to be pleasing to him but rather justice demands that we be condemned to hell as morally ugly and therefore under his wrath.

“Sanctification is imperfect, mixed with our sins, and therefore cannot be the basis for justification” – That is true, but it understates the case.  Not only will we have all our past sins still against us, which must be removed only by pardon, but the good works are God’s gift, so we don’t get credit for them.  Therefore, judged by our works, God sees only our bad works, since they only are truly ours, and we deserve death.  So we can’t be justified by our works, even our works done in grace.  How can we be justified?  Only by Christ’s merit given to us and none of our own.  His merit is graciously imputed to us who have none, and this bears its fruit in our lives in our sanctification.

1. 829 – “Worthiness is of the essence of moral goodness, and universally and necessarily attends it, as much as guilt or blame attends sin or moral evil.  As all moral evil is blameworthy, and worthy of abhorrence and the fruits of abhorrence, so all moral goodness is praiseworthy, worthy of acceptance, approbation, and of the fruits of acceptance and approbation;”
2. 627 – Our works are rewarded with such a great reward only because they are seen in Christ, or our person’s are seen in Christ.  “If we never had committed but one sin and at all other times had exercised perfect holiness and performed perfect obedience, yet looking upon us as we are by ourselves, with all that belongs to us, we should be in no degree lovely persons but hateful, though we had performed many lovely acts; and no one act of holiness is a lovely act in itself and without consideration of any relation to Christ, unless it be a perfect act.”
3. 679 – “Hence when the sense get to heaven they will [have] this to rejoice them and add to their blessedness, that God hath a real delight and joy in them, in their holiness and happiness.”
4. 779 – “THE NECESSITY OF SATISFACTION.”  “All sin may be resolved into hatred of God and our neighbor, as all our duty may be resolved into love of God and our neighbor.”  “When the majesty of God has such contempt cast upon it, and is trodden down in the dust by vile sinners, ‘tis not fit that this infinite and glorious majesty should be left under this contempt, but that it should be vindicated wholly from it; that it should be raised perfectly from the dust wherein it is trodden by something opposite to the contempt that it is equivalent to it, or of weight sufficient to balance it, either an equivalent punishment, or an equivalent sorrow and repentance, so that sin must be punished with an infinite punishment.”  Fascinating discussion of satisfaction.
5. 341 – “not enough considering that they have nothing to boast of, seeing that ‘tis God that makes them to differ, and that . . . their beauty is not original to themselves.”
6. 341 – “If God should behold them as they are, with all their unworthiness, their filthiness and deformity, and did not overlook their deformity upon Christ’s account, God would have no delight in them at all for that little holiness they have, because their sin is of infinite demerit and their holiness is nothing put in the scale against it.”
7.  340-341 – And it must needs be so, for God necessarily takes delight in his own image and in his own beauty wherever he sees it.  Indeed, the best saints in this world, they have more deformity than they have of this beauty, but all their deformity is overlooked; it is put upon Christ’s account, so that although there be so much filthiness and deformity in the saints, yet God sees none . . . he sees nothing but beauty in them . . . Not that there is no spot really in the church here upon earth, for how exceedingly defiled are the hearts of the saints, and how defiled and spotted are their services:  but God beholds it not; he imputes it not to them; he sees nothing but beauty . . . [inherent righteousness] is Christ’s righteousness as well as imputed righteousness:  imputed righteousness is Christ’s righteousness accepted for them, inherent holiness is Christ’s righteousness communicated to them . . . Now God takes delight in the saints for both these . . . though ‘tis the former only that avails anything to justification.”
8. 692-693 – “The new nature in a Christian is perfectly pure: there is nothing purer than the new nature in the saints.  The new nature is [not] quite pure, for the saints ben’t quite pure.  Yet ‘tis not because the new nature in them is not pure, but because there is a mixture of new nature and old.  As the old nature is altogether corrupt, so the new nature is altogether pure: there is not the least defilement  in it.  So far as that goes, there is nothing but purity.  The defilement that is in the soul don’t arise from any defilement in the new nature from a mixture of the old.  The new nature is as pure as heaven itself is . . . And indeed the new nature in a saint can scarce itself be distinguished from the communication or participation he has of the Spirit of God, or that Spirit dwelling in him united to him, acting as a vital principle in his soul.”
9. Brainerd 444 – “The exercise of these Godlike tempers, wherein the soul acts in a kind of concert with God, and would be and do everything that is pleasing to God; this, I saw, would stand by the soul in a dying hour; for God must, I think, ‘deny himself’ [II Tim. 2:13] if he casts away ‘his own image’ [Gen. 1:27], even the soul that is one in desires with himself.”
10. Brainerd 449 – “I saw further that as this divine temper, whereby the soul exalts God and treads self in the dust, is wrought in the soul by God’s discovering his own glorious perfections ‘in the face of Jesus Christ’ [II Cor. 4:6] to it, by the special influences of the Holy Spirit, so he cannot but have regard to it, as his own work; and as it is his image in the soul, he cannot but take delight in it.  Then I saw again that if God should slight and reject his own moral image, he must needs ‘deny himself’ [II Tim. 2:13]; which he cannot do.  And thus I saw the stability and infallibility of this religion, and that those who are truly possessed of it have the most complete and satisfying evidence of their being interested in all the benefits of Christ’s redemption, having their hearts conformed to him; and that these and these only are qualified for the employments and entertainments of God’s kingdom of glory; as none but these have any relish for the business of heaven, which is to ascribe glory to God and not to themselves; and that God (though I would speak it with great reverence of his Name and perfections) cannot, without denying himself, finally cast such away.”

The process of justification is the process by which a person who has no righteousness is given the righteousness of Christ by which he can stand before God’s judgment.  It is by grace and faith rather than by works or merit.  It can be divided into three parts:  1. Synthetic Justification—declaring righteousness to be ours who have none ourselves.  2. Sanctification—making us actually personally righteous by virtue of the infusion of the rightteousness given us in synthetic justification.  3.  Analytical justification—declaring us to be actually and personally righteous, having been made righteous by Christ’s righteousness given to us and infused within us.

If “It must be undue” means, it must be something that we give to God, coming from ourselves and adding to him, or profiting him, and we are thinking of sanctification as our work, then I agree that it is not undue.  Relatedly, if “the disproportion between sanctification and the reward” refers to a disproportion coming from the work considered as coming from us, or as us giving to God what is his own gift to us, obviously, there is no proportion.  Even if we give back to God all his own, we deserve no reward.  And we don’t even do that, taking into account our sins and all the defects of our obedience.  We cannot satisfy or merit by God’s work in us.  Our satisfaction and merit is wholly by imputation, though given imputation, we can be said to have merit in some sense, or to attain the reward.

This document is dated 6/16/2003.  I'm trying here to use the term "justification" to refer to imputation--where Christ's righteousness is declared legally ours, giving us a right to it and its benefits--and the term "sanctification" to refer to the actual delivery to us of Christ's righteousness and our actual experience of it and its benefits in sanctification.  By adopting this language, in contrast to the Augustinian language which would use the term "justification" to cover both of these things, I'm hoping to be able to articulate the substance of my Augustinian views in a way palatable to Reformed people (but without any deception, which is why I've spent so much time and effort trying to correctly understand and interpret what the Reformed are trying to say and how they might legitimately be understood).

Justification:  We can only be justified, or given a title and right to eternal life, by the imputed righteousness of Christ, by which he satisfied for our sins and merited eternal life for us.  We cannot be justified by our own works, because we cannot merit by them.  Even if we were without sin, as creatures we could never merit eternal life by our works, because of the infinite disproportion and distance between God and us, seeing that we are nothing in ourselves and we have all from him, and we are not only creatures, but sinners, who deserve therefore nothing but eternal wrath.  We cannot satisfy for our sins or merit by works without grace, since we have no good apart from grace, and we cannot satisfy or merit by God’s work in us, since in all our good works, we are simply giving back to God his own gifts.  If a person steals money from you, he cannot make it up by giving you money you loaned to him, which he already owed you anyway.  We cannot satisfy by paying our debts.  We cannot merit by our works, before or after conversion.
Sanctification:  Although we cannot merit by God’s work in us, the holiness he works in us makes us fit for the receiving of eternal life.  Justification removes the guilt of sin and gives us a right to eternal life, but God’s holiness demands that we be freed from the presence of sin in us as well.  In an unsanctified state, it would be unfitting for God to delight in us and give us the blessings of his favor.  Rather, our uncleanness would warrant the manifestations of his abhorrence.  Sanctification cleanses us from sin and conforms us to the law inwardly and in our practice, making us pleasing and delightful to God, and thus worthy of his delight and the blessings of it.

This document is dated 7/31/2003.  In this document, I have, almost, come to terms with what I understand of the Reformed view.  I've just about accepted that the gap between Augustinianism and Reformed thought can be bridged.  I'm comfortable expressing my Augustinianism in what I take to be Reformed-friendly language.  A very short time after this, as I recall, I concluded that the gap could be bridged, and that was my view for the next decade-and-a-half, even a number of years after I became Catholic.  But since about three years ago or so, I've started to wonder whether my pro-Augustinian understanding of the Reformed doctrine of justification is really true to what the Reformed language was originally trying to say and what Reformed people in general have understood it to mean over the centuries.  Is the gap really bridgable?  I'm not entirely sure, but I'm growing more suspicious of it.

A very brief statement of my position on justification and sanctification.

Justification:  Justification as a theological term refers to a state of acquittal and merit before the law of God.  The “ground of justification” refers to that which gives us a right to pardon and to eternal life before that law.  This is, and can only be, for sinful creatures, the imputed righteousness of Christ.  Sinners cannot be justified by their own works or merit, either before regeneration or after—before, because they have no good works or righteousness at all before regeneration; after, because all the good they have in them is due simply to God’s grace and is his gift.  We cannot satisfy for our sins or merit life at God’s hand by simply giving back to him what is his own.  It would be like attempting to pay a debt, say $20.00, to someone by borrowing another $20.00 from him and then giving it back to him.  If we owe a debt to God’s law, in order to pay it ourselves, we must pay it with what we have, not with what God gives us.  Because all we have is from God, there is an infinite disproportion between what we are and have and what God is and has, and thus we cannot possibly make up for our sins or merit anything from God by any works of our own, regenerate or otherwise.  Even without immediately considering sin, no creature righteousness at all, if there could be any, could merit anything from God, because of the before-mentioned disproportion; much less can we sinners hope to be justified by our works.  The only possible ground of our justification, or our right to pardon and eternal life, is the imputation of Christ’s righteousness.  What we can never produce ourselves, must be credited to us as a gift.  We must forever stand only in the righteousness of God’s Son, credited to us merely as an act of God’s grace.

Sanctification:  If we have a right to pardon and eternal life entirely by the imputation of Christ’s righteousness, what does it matter whether or not we ever become personally or internally righteous, or undergo sanctification?  The imputation is not all we need to actually receive the benefits of eternal life.  It gives us a right to it, but it does not fit us for the reception of it.  The job of making us fit for receiving what we have been given a right to falls to sanctification.  In an unsanctified and unregenerate condition, we are enemies of God, full of all corruption, and are appropriately loathsome to him in a moral sense.  We are fit only for God’s displeasure, and it would be inappropriate for God, in his righteousness and holiness, to treat us in any other way than as displeasing to him and worthy of his abhorrence and the fruit of this abhorrence, namely rejection.  We may have a right to life, but we are fit only for destruction.  In sanctification, the Holy Spirit applies the virtue of Christ’s righteousness inwardly, giving us a participation in Christ’s righteousness or holiness internally and experientially, changing us from being morally repulsive enemies of God to being bearers of his image, morally pleasing and delightful to him, loving him with all our hearts.  This process begins in regeneration and is completed in our glorification, and is substantial, but not perfect, in this life.  This change destroys the sin in us, putting it to death, enabling us to do good works, and gives us a fitness for the reception of eternal life.  Now we are morally pleasing to God; he delights in us, as we reflect his character.  We are fit for God’s delighting in us and rewarding us with the fruits of his delight, namely reception into his presence and eternal life, and we are now unfit for anything else but God’s delight and acceptance.  It would be inappropriate for God to reject us in abhorrence, since we reflect him and live in loving obedience to him, just as it was unfitting for him to receive us without sanctification.  So, with this change, we are fit to be received.

It is impossible for justification to exist without sanctification, and vice versa.  It would be a contradictory situation:  If we were justified without sanctification, we would have a right to life but be fit only for death.  If we were sanctified without justification and imputation, we would be have no right to life, and in fact deserve only death, and yet be unfit to receive death but only to be pleasing to God and receive the fruits of God’s delight.  It would be as impossible as the idea of the unstoppable force meeting the immovable object; it cannot be in all of reality.  Justification and sanctification can be distinguished, but they can never be separated.

Another comment:  Although without imputation, our best regenerate works can merit nothing from God, yet with imputation, in the context of being justified, God sees fit to reward us according to the righteousness he has created in us by the Holy Spirit.  Justification by faith alone does not rule out a reward, even of eternal life, for our works, but it makes clear that such a reward is not inherently ours, but becomes ours only in the context of our having Christ’s righteousness imputed to us.  God’s work in us is quite fit for reward, but we receive a right to that reward only by means of and with the assumption of our having Christ’s righteousness imputed to us.

One final comment:  The differences I thought I had with the historic Reformed articulation of justification seem to boil down to terminology.  I was using the term ‘merit’ not only to refer to what gives us a right to life, but as including the idea of ‘moral fitness.’  The idea that our regenerate works have a moral fitness to the reward has always been acknowledged in Reformed theology, but using the term ‘merit’ to refer to this fitness has been anathema, since to say regenerate works can merit eternal life in the Reformed tradition means that we can gain merit with God by means of them.  I was using the term simply to express this concept of ‘fitness.’  When I realized this, along with some other realizations, I came to hope that our differences could end up being basically terminological rather than substantial.  I think that is likely.  But I must wait for confirmation of this in the form of feedback on this statement and further conversation.

Published on the feast of the First Martyrs of the Holy Roman Church.